The Backburner

My heart hurts.
My soul is lonely.
I feel as though I am being torn in half.


I want to go back home to my family and lick my wounds.

But, if I do that, wouldn’t I then be just as selfish as he is? I would be uprooting my children from all that they know, from their home, their friends, their grandparents, and their father.

As his grandmother said to me, “when you have children your needs and wants get sent to the backburner.”

Right now, I want to fight for my marriage, but I don’t know how.

How do I fight against someone who feels that what he’s doing is what’s right and better in the long run?

How do I fight against someone who only sees what is happening right now and doesn’t see the long term effects?

How do I fight to prove that what we have is so special, so wonderful, that it’s worth what we are going through now: that the outcome could be beautiful?

How?

Advertisements

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

w

Connecting to %s