This is what letting go means to me. 1. Letting go means I trust you to make decisions for you. And I'll make decisions for me. It means I know what a wonderful person I am and I know what I deserve so I won't settle. It also means I won't accept less than what [...]
I apologize to those of you who have had to put up with my startling emotional changes in the past couple of months. The stages of grief are a very real thing and right now I'm at the acceptance part, but that could change at any time. Seriously. I keep cycling between denial and [...]
It's a bad day, not a bad life. We've tried so many times already. I'm lonely. I feel tired and worn. I've lost some weight. I've been mostly okay since the 22nd. Until today that is. My heart feels like it's breaking all over again. I keep thinking of how he rejected everything I [...]
I started this blog as a way for me to let some of my terrible, no good feelings out (somewhat) anonymously. Without it, I wouldn't be telling my husband every single thought in my head I never expected anyone to read it notice it. But there are a few of you that are reading [...]
Things I've learned in the past 387 days that may help someone else not go through this. Never take your spouse's loyalty or the sacredness of your marriage vows for granted. When you stop focusing on others, on what they should or shouldn't be doing, analyzing motivations and actions, you have more time to [...]
One day of silence down, a gazillion more to go. Actually, I guess it would be 2 days. I haven't emailed him whatever silly thought pops in my head since Friday. But... I haven't physically spoken to him or heard his voice since the day before Fathers Day.